"After years of defining myelf as the mother of boys, I've been afraid that what's mattered most in my life will be over when my son's leave home. I feel like someone who's had the rug pulled out from under them. Losing this part of my life, this time of being a mother to growing children, is indeed and ending. For months I have carried that quiet sorrow, getting used to it's heaviness. What I long to do now is let the sadness go as well, to have faith that even as this phase of our family life draws to a close, there will be new beginings not just for my sons, but for all of us."
You may not relate to these words now.... but someday you will. The time goes quickly, its not just a silly phrase. Whether you have boys or girls, there will be a time when you look at your husband and strain to remember what it was like when your kids were young and times when you flip flop back and forth from " will they EVER leave to I hope they never do"..... As Matty in so many ways has been gone for quie a few years becasue of snowboarding this finality has caught us off guard. Thank goddness I have all my "little friends" to keep me occupied and loved !